Today was a national holiday.
I was supposed to spend the day boring myself to tears with my parents at home, since my BF was trying to get some much needed sleep after starting her job (I'm meeting her tomorrow evening with some of the other girls for pre-dinner drinks).

Instead I decided to take up on the out-of-the-blue invite I got yesterday from one of my jap classmates and went out for lunch with her.
We were supposed to eat chinese with a friend of hers, but we ended up having an extra guy and eating japanese :P
It was fun!
They're pretty laid back, and 2 of them share my love for japanese things, obviously XD

Somehow lunch turned into an 'all day hanging out' experience with basically ALL of her friends showing up.
We just sat at a bar and drank ginseng iced tea and talked about italian anime openings XDDD
It was refreshing, since none of my friends give a crap about anime or japanese things in general. I can't talk to any of them about the stuff I talk about on here... I told them about my japanese course and they looked at me funny with a face that clearly said 'Why?' before switching to a different topic XD

It was different talking with people who actually understand what I'm talking about and sometimes even know more than me about it XD


Still, I'm glad I'll see my small group again tomorrow.
It's been too long since we managed to be all free to meet. And Elena graduated uni recently so we'll probably celebrate her :P

I know I rarely post about my RL friends here...
I'm making an exception for Christmas since my best friend, Cristina, gave me the cutest gift ever yesterday.
She's been very busy these last few months, she's working part-time in university and you know how it is: they need the help and use the students, but there's no money so they get paid months later.

Well, she didn't have time to shop for us so this time she decided to make 'home-made' gifts.
She bought 2 amazing green teas, 1 chinese and 1 japanese, and she then baked all kind of cookies and made a wonderful gift-plate. You should have seen it: cookies with coconut on them, cookies covered in chocolate, cookies with sugar and almonds, and full almonds and nuts covered in brown and white chocolate...
It was amazing.

<3

Tomorrow after months and months I'm finally getting together with Maria Chiara too.
People say that the student life is so cool and you have so much free time... liars! We barely manage to see each other since we go to different university, gah!

Hence the need to catch up. We'll spend the afternoon here just chatting and gossiping :P
And I hope she'll open her Christmas gift here, for once I'm mighty proud of myself for it... so I proud that I almost said 'Screw this, I'm getting it for myself too!'... but alas, the money as gone ;___;
Hopefully she'll like it ^^;
...and hopefully my mom will disappear and go shopping while she's here so we'll be able to talk freely.

Cristina is having her graduation party on Saturday.

I should be thrilled... and I was, until yesterday. I like that she's doing something very informal at Fede's apartment, and I love her friends from University and Gibe (another old friend), but yesterday she told me to invite my parents as well sine her mother, her uncles and Fede's parents will be there.

It's really silly of me, but always been like that...

All it takes is for people I'm not familiar with to be there and I freeze up. Can you believe I considered not going for a split second yesterday?

Why do I have to be so freaking shy?

I know her mom well, hell I've known Cris for almost 15 years!

But I don't know Fede's parents and those are people she's close to. I think part of the problem is that I need to accept she WILL marry Fede eventually. And it's not easy for me, since I've always felt a vibe of dislike toward me from him, vibe that works viceversa becaue no matter how 'perfectly' he's behaving now, he's immature and made her suffer A LOTì in the past. He forced her to change, and he's really old fashion minded... I'm deadly afraid she'll suffer in the long run, but I realize that at this point is not my business anymore.

I'm willing to give him a chance, but he's not giving it to me. We've known each other for years and we don't even exchange Christmas greetings. And he's never openly rude or disliking so I can't tell Cris 'He doesn't like me' without coming off as paranoid or the one who has a problem with him.

Crap.

-Tomorrow is THE day, finally.
Cris will discuss her thesis and graduate. I saw her today too, she wanted 'support' in going to the hairdresser, lol.
Seems like there will be a lot of people going to see her which is good :)


-While looking for a card for her I finally found the economic edition of 'Eragon'.
I'm not particularly attracted to the book, but everyone and their mamas keep telling me I should read it and how I'd enjoy it so I decided to give it a shot.

But the reading will have to wait.
I finished (FINALLY!) 'The Golden Compass by Philip Pullman (got side-tracked by other books) and now I'm reading 'The Subtle Knife', second in the Trilogy.
I have to hurry it up too cause it's a library book and I have 15 days to finish it as of now :P


-I wanted to upload more userpics but I forgot I deleted all my pics from the pc...
I'm cleaning it up. The computer shop wants it and they'll give me a few bucks for it so I'll pay the notebook less.
Other than that I'm keeping my mouth firmly shut about this, don't want to jinx any possibility :P

LOL, I wish.
But that's how I felt this afternoon.
My friend Cris is going to discuss her thesis and graduate from university on the 18th, and she called me over asking me to read her whole thesis and review it for her, down to the commas and dots.
It was funny, staying there with a red pen and mark her papers :P

I really like her Thank You note, she wrote a sort of poem about her deceased dad.


In other, less thrilling news my youngest cousin was really sick last night.
Paolo is 6 years old, he came home from school with a fever but the situation got out of hand last night. He had a sky high fever and was delirious, screaming and saying he was seeing ghosts and weird animals everywhere. I knew it was bad from the fact that my aunt is an elementary teacher, she never loses her cool and she has 3 children, never panicked. But last night she did.
She got scared thinking it might be meningitis.

*sigh* The fever broke this morning but this evening it started going up again, hopefully it'll all work out for the better.

Cris' dad got worst all of a sudden.
I didnt see him, but the few things Cris told me are enough to make me pray his suffering will end soon.
Morphine isn't working anymore, I'll spare you the other details.
I don't know what to do with myself.
She doesnt want help, and I feel like I'm in a limbo, waiting.
I even feel guilty doing what I normally do, even trying to read something distracting makes me feel like I'm being unfair toward them.

Why they can find cures for everything BUT this? Why can't they find a way to not make suffer people so much from it? Are they even looking?!?

Cris in the end couldn't come.
It wasn't her mom, it was some friends of her dad who were supposed to be there, but they backed out so she had to stay with him. And she cannot study with him cause he keeps the tv sky-high or stay next to her talking.
:\
Once again, I feel so useless... I look at this from all angles and try to find a way to help her, but I can't see it.


Dad is back at his depressed moods. He was all like, AGAIN 'Let me eat, let me stuff myself, it's the only joy I have, my life sucks...'.
And now the weekend is coming... the time I dread the most. We're not even able to visit the grandparents or cousins this time (for the snow) and this means 2 days at home with nothing to do and my mother around, the mother who refuse to talk to him and always makes him feel like crap, being around 24/7.
This is going to go SO bad ...

1 day straight of snow, and it's STILL snowing.
I've never seen something like that...whoa!

Not everyone is happy with the white mistress though.
My dad yesterday, in going out to meet a client, slided on an icy spot and fell. He came home the mother of back aches, even staying on his feet at times hurt. Man, he's really getting old... :(
Hope today he feels better... I told him to wake me up so I could put on him a medicated bandage but he didn't, stubborn ass.

Cris is coming over to study this afternoon, apparently her mom is at home to watch her dad.
Good :)

I finally decided to get a prepaid credit card.
Necessity called for it, I needed to use PayPal... lol.
Thing is now I'll have to wait til the PostePay people send me my validation code.
I hope I won't mae a mess with PayPal, sending money to who-knows-who... lol!

*fingers crossed*


I saw Cris even if briefly. Her dad had a friend over so she could come for 1 hour.
She's falling apart, as in tired, really tired and unable to do anything productive for herself.
I gave her the melissa-hypericus herbal helps I used to give dad (now he can't use them anymore), hopefully she'll be able to at least sleep a bit with them.

I feel impotent, I can't do anything for her.


In other news, TIM (my cellphone administrator company) called me today. I started the process to change administrator company and switch to Vodafone. They're not liking it I guess.
They're offering em the moon and the stars, literally. LOL.
"We'll pay for stopping the switching papers. We'll give you an extra free credit of 80 euros and switch your calling fees to extra convenient ones, since you're one of our oldest members and all. Those are privileges we don't give to new customers!!!"
LOL. I had a good laugh :P
When I said "No, thanks" the girl was all like "No! Wait! Think about it! You can switch afterward but for now take advantage of this! I'll call you back! Don't worry and think, no rush,even if the papers will be sent in 2 days!"
*hihihihihihihi*

Not really... and I'm changing the words of the song... poor Maroon 5! :P
Yesterday I did something I haven't done in maybe a year (if not more).
I DROVE!
I took Courage by the neck and asked him to come with me, I had a mission! Before lunch I did about an hour of driving around town (and Milan is one trafficked city, let me tell you!).
Dad was beside me, I wasn't THAT sure of myself yet, but it went better than I expected. Car did not turn off or anything, I even managed to park :P
I'm just too concerned about the idiots behind me that Honk! Honk! Honk! away if you don't sprint.
Well...still I was proud of myself.
How big of a dork am I?!?
LOL!

Today I gave dad his first Prozac dose... He's lamenting a strong headache, has since this morning. Soon to say if it's from the medicine but he does look... tired.
*LeSigh*
*fingers crossed against possible bad side effects*

Cris' dad is doing worst.
In short, in his daughter's words, he's losing it. Acts really nervous, has inexplicable behaviors... not good. And her mother is a basket case, so Cris is having a really hard time of it.
She had to get out of University earlier today to go keep company to her dad cause he was "feeling nervous" and then I didn't hear anymore from her even if we were supposed to hang out. Poor thing :(