May 25th, 2004


Back from the funeral

Went to the funeral yesterday.
I never thought it would affect me that much... mainly becaue it made me think, thoughts that I coulnd't stop.

I started thinking about my granma. How she seems less lifeful, how she seems tired and keeps on saying weird stuff about being tired, us not having to worry and shit...
I'm scared shitless of loosing her.
I don't don't know how I would make it without her, seriously.
I'm so close to her, I love her almost more than my parents... I don't want to loose her. But I know that I can't bullshit myslef in thinking she'll be here forever.

Useless to think about this now, but I can't stop.
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