October 25th, 2006

Leaf Girl

Confessions of a drama queen

Cristina is having her graduation party on Saturday.

I should be thrilled... and I was, until yesterday. I like that she's doing something very informal at Fede's apartment, and I love her friends from University and Gibe (another old friend), but yesterday she told me to invite my parents as well sine her mother, her uncles and Fede's parents will be there.

It's really silly of me, but always been like that...

All it takes is for people I'm not familiar with to be there and I freeze up. Can you believe I considered not going for a split second yesterday?

Why do I have to be so freaking shy?

I know her mom well, hell I've known Cris for almost 15 years!

But I don't know Fede's parents and those are people she's close to. I think part of the problem is that I need to accept she WILL marry Fede eventually. And it's not easy for me, since I've always felt a vibe of dislike toward me from him, vibe that works viceversa becaue no matter how 'perfectly' he's behaving now, he's immature and made her suffer A LOTì in the past. He forced her to change, and he's really old fashion minded... I'm deadly afraid she'll suffer in the long run, but I realize that at this point is not my business anymore.

I'm willing to give him a chance, but he's not giving it to me. We've known each other for years and we don't even exchange Christmas greetings. And he's never openly rude or disliking so I can't tell Cris 'He doesn't like me' without coming off as paranoid or the one who has a problem with him.


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