October 3rd, 2007

Leaf Girl

I keep postponing

I have to call the boss and say no to his offer.
It's too much for me right now... He wants full time 5 days a week because there's already an employee that's causing him trouble by doing part-time 3 days a week. Add to that the journey to get there... I'd be out of the house before 8AM and go back after 8PM.
It would be a 3 years contract, at the end of it I should be his vice or something similar.
It's appealing but I simply don't have the time to dedicate to it.
When I do take a job like this one, I want to be able to focus solely on this, heart and soul, and I can't do that now.

I started hinting to my answer to dad and he was pissed... I can only imagine the kind of evening we'll have.
Mom was starting to be swayed toward letting me go...
I feel like I'm letting everybody down, it's horrible.

Talking to my parents was bad enough, I'm afraid to call the boss now.
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Leaf Girl

I did it

I did the call.
It went better than I thought but still left me feeling dreadful in some respects.
I told him I wasn't in the conditions, mind-set and time-like, to work full time, I could do 4 days out of 5 or similar.
He told me at the moment he needs someone to work hours that go closer to 6 days than 5 so nope...
He made an extra offer, saying I should concentrate on finishing my studies and start the thesis. At that point he could give me a stage and I could try for an experimental thesis, he could give me contacts with people inside Moschino, Calvin Klein or even the top guys in the Milan Fair to interview them. I would be forming the thesis and help them by working for them during the stage.

It seems like a great idea to me, I was hoping my parents would too.
My father doesn't seem to think so, he's still hung up on me not taking this opportunity to have a steady job.
There'll be hell in this house tonight... I'm kinda scared.